I am done with trying to make things so perfect. Just when I think everything is perfect and I'm holding on to what I worked so hard for it seems to be slipping through my fingers. Yea, It can be A LOT worse but I really think it's my ability that I can NOT let go of the past. So maybe it is my fault. I try to let the past be the past but the past is what fucked me over so much. I try to be the best girlfriend I can be but I can't seem to live up to those standards. Two people are expecting me to change this and I can't even do it for them let alone myself. Overall I am happy. I don't know. I am lost in my own world that isn't a part of this galaxy.
I think...
It's beautiful, wonderful, perfect, amazing.
I'm just wondering if it's for me.
Me.
- Monique Elaine
- Redlands, California, United States
- I'm a mother, best friend, wonderful listener, perfect lover.
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